Not much new to report. Still searching I guess.
Iv’e always heard that admitting there’s a problem is the first step to changing it. Not really sure I’ve done that yet, maybe I’ve just admitted that I need to admit the problem. I guess I don’t know how to put words to it, even in my own head.
So basically I’m in my own way……again.
Everything is my fault. I could blame a lot of things and a lot of people but at the end of the day you gotta take a hard look at yourself. And you have to take ownership of your own life and all the shit that’s in it and all that’s not in it.
I don’t have what I want because I’m not going for it with all got. I let myself get distracted by anything and everything that comes my way. I cut the tree down, but the cat is still sitting there waiting for me the come get it. In the meantime; I’m hunting squirrels, and all the holes keep getting deeper and darker.
So what now? I have no clue.